And I am not sure...

What to do?
Now I am, after so long, being indecisive again...
I cannot even get the facts right...

My mind is blur.
What shall I do now huh?
Helpless?
Being helpless?
Cannot help out?

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Listening to 'Paparazzi' by Girls' Generation, new song!
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Feel like...
A maze? A puzzle?

Oh no...

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Do not look back,
Look what's in front of you!
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By carrying all the stress and burden,
I am one step ahead again!
But now comes to the sickening question...

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'Am I doing the right thing? Yes? No?
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Plus...
I am not sure...
For every thing I did...

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What? Who? When? Where? Why?
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AM I REALLY DOING THINGS RIGHT?
I DO NOT KNOW!!!

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Raged!
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This is just, SAD!

Sleepless night x54321
Jaymon, Signing out.

故事背后...

我选择......

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再见五月，你好六月，
看起来有东西庆祝的样子！

呐，算了！
不知道这件事，
应该怎样开始说起...

有时想一想，
真的值得吗？
就为了一个‘她’...

让我把‘故事’,
变成‘结局’说说看...

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若我和她在一起了...

我会越来越了解她，
越来越欣赏她，
越来越喜欢她，
视她为公主似的，
疼爱她，珍惜她。

就算咱们有缺点，有不足够的地方，
没关系，一起进步，一起改善缺点，
做到这点，就没有不可能的事了！

(纸上谈兵？不对。
我相信，我绝对能够做的到！)

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若我和她不可能在一起的...

难过，痛哭，
是肯定有的，
与朋友聊天谈心，
把失落的心情，
抛越远越好...

然后，
提升自己，
让自己进步，成功，
朝自己的目标前进!

(说到做到？很难说。
至少我有这样的想法...吧...)

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想太多了！
没办法，我不是神，
没办法改变这结局...

唯一能够做的，
是把思念化为推动力，
毕竟，考试要到了，
先把这些复杂的事放在一边吧！
(的空再想！哈！)

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TVB名句！
～我喜欢一个人不一定要和她在一起～
～看到她幸福就行了～
～最好当然是可以在一起～

(特别是第三句，
超赞的！有同感咧！)

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一年多了，
我再次做出选择了......
这次，无论结局如何，
我不理，我不管，
这是我最后一次，
没三思的决定！

我选择......



Signing out,
Jaymon Lum

Raged...!

After so long, you guys finally got my nerves on!!
Last week was the most frustrated week I have ever been through!!
F**king course-mates and so-called-FRIENDS! You guys surely were brave enough!
Gave me such unpredictable memories just weeks before I graduated?!

1st!
Sorry without sincere is a bullsh*t to me! I remind you once again!
Do NOT ever think that saying 'sorry' is a potion for friendship-recovery!
This does not work on me EVERYTIME!

2nd!
Do NOT use me as a f**king tool!
Street Light? Garden Bulb?
GO BUY ONE PLEASE??!
Once I knew this, you are done for, so do our valueless friendship!

3rd!
PLEASE LEARN HOW TO SAY 'THANK YOU'!
Help you loads of times for ZERO return!
Was not expecting anything but smallest appreciation from you!
BUT U F**KING SH*T GO AND PISS ME OFF, AGAIN AND AGAIN?!
FOR YOUR CONCERN, IT IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL!!!

I AM OUTTA HERE!

P/S : This post is only freaking dedicated to 3 person. Only one small week, they can cause such troubles on me. Never mind, I will not revenge. Take this as experience, and that's all.

FRIEND-ZONED!

Jaymon,
Signing out.

Back from Spring Memories..

Well, exactly one year...
After 'that' significant event in my life...
I am back to blog!

And I guess, no one is following my blog anymore.
Come on? One year MIA from BLOGSPOT? You gotta be kidding!
So, I am gonna tag this in FB everytime after updating my blog.

Ohya, forgot something!

1st time make something random by myself..
Acceptable uh..?

Back to topic.
Summary of why I MIA for one year... 

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 1) Internship

 Went to a good company, became an audit trainee, made friends there.
Thanks again to all managers/seniors/juniors in audit, tax, secretary department, for assisting me in my audit fieldwork and provide guidance whenever I need it.

 2) South Korea Winter Trip with my family!

Cool! Freezing!
For the 1st time in my life,
- Saw snow poured down!
- Had snowball fight!
- Snow skiing!
- Ate kimchi!
And many many more!
Enjoyable moments were short yet memorable!

In Front of A Restaurant Around MyongDyeung Street

Cosplay! As Korea Traditional Emperor? 

On Top Of Snow Mountain Near DMZ! Freezing!

Hugging A Huge Snow Rock!

Pulled Down A Sharp Ice Like A Boss?

Skiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~

Nami Island - Pinetree + Bridge Covered by Ice!

Ok that's enough I guess.

More pictures? In my Facebook photos~

3) 2012 New Year Resolution

Okay, this was suppose to be something headache!

Yet without further thought, I had set a few for myself...

(i) Get good result in my final semester, at least 3.50

(ii) Write 5 songs (accumulated since year 2008...)

(iii) Start a good relationship with... (In short, get a gf)

Well, regardless possible or not, 

I'll inform you all during end of this year.

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That's all I guess.

-Wait! Why 'Spring Memories'?!-

Oh.

In fact, since that 'significant event' which happen during spring last year,

My life was dull, colourless, bored,

I was doing stupid things again and again,

I was not the same as the one I am...

But now,

I can stand on my own again,

It takes one year, and everything is alright now.

- Though, memories won't fade off just like that-

Whoops!

It's 2.45am now. 

I shall stop here :)

Jaymon, signing off.

Miracle..?

I did it..
2 days 2 nights without sleep..
Colourful notes..
Just for her..

Proven a concept..

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ABCDEFG
A Boy Can Do Everything For Girl
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Yet..
It just brought more tears..

I hate myself even more now..
Why am i that stubborn?
Why am i that stupid?

Yes, for a girl i love..
I answered it confidently..
And..
This is what i got now..

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Nothing..
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Now..
I just hope for miracles..
I can't do anything now..
Tired, Exhausted..

But..
What I can do is..
Pray hard for her in final..
Wish her always pink in health..

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To Her,
All the Best.. <3
From Jaymon
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Jaymon
Signing off

Done,,, And for a moment...

Ya, done..
So now..
I have to wait..

And partially I just found out that...

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I need you even more now...
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Perhaps
Things might not be going well along the road

Perhaps
Sometimes quarrel or arguments might happen

Perhaps...

Don't worry
Everything will be very fine
Trust me

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Rating of the day : 7/10
Comment : Still not good enough, but good job, tried your very best.
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Nitez

Jaymon
Signing off

Close2Far?

Em...
So what now...?

The problem is...
Am I doing good enough for now?
Shall I do more? Or not?
I mean, it is like...
50 50...
I don't know =.=

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I'm afraid of failing
seriously...
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Just hopefully everything is going well =)

Jaymon
Signing off